Genres: Crime, Dark, Suspense, Thriller
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When Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as children, they couldn’t have been more different. Ellis was loud and beautiful – all blond hair, bright laughs and smiles. Heathan was dark and brooding, and obsessed with watching things die. The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a perpetual hell. Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them. Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood. Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain. As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go. With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them. One at a time. Each one more deadly than the last. Tick Tock.
Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for ages 18 and over.
When I started my reading journey, I realized that there really is no limit to what an author can write about, whether it’s about cheating, cancer, abortion, borderline incestuous relations, murder, vampires, wolves and zombies…..you name it and there’s a book about it. As the number of books in my TBR increased, the more and more I read, I started learning what I disliked in books, what I DID NOT want to read about, what rubbed me the wrong way and I would rely on blurbs and warnings from my peers to stay away from certain genres, certain books. Well, FOR ME, I realize that’s no way to live. Had I NOT read the books that I vowed to stay away from, I would have missed out in the worst way. I never would have seen the true beauty in each of those books.
Before I continue, I need to say this….
I appreciate the DNF’s, the negative criticism and the uproar that it’s caused in the book community. If I was just starting my reading journey and went into this blind, I would have DNF’d then puked and thrown my e-reader in the fucking garbage. So, I hear y’all, I do. For someone like me to read this book, as dark and fucked up as it was AND THEN give it 5 beautifully fucked up stars….. is HUGE….HUGE. I wouldn’t have touched this shit with a 10 foot pole a year ago.
With all that said, this was hands down, by far THE MOST fucked up, DARK. AS. SHIT., twisted, violent, gut wrenching, sadistically beautiful book I’ve ever fucking read in my entire career. I follow Tillie on social media on several platforms, so I heeded her warning that this was sick, twisted and really fucking dark and HOLY EFFING SHIT, was it ever. But do you want to know what I saw? I saw true love. It may not be the traditional standard of love or the type of love that “normal,” mainstream folks are used to but any way you cut this, it’s love. I saw two broken people trying to fix the wrong. I saw a boy who loves a girl. I saw that boy protecting that girl at any and all costs. On the outside, the story is vile and seriously fucked up but by digging deeper into the pits of your soul, you’ll see it, the love. It’s there plain as day. You can’t help but root for them, even though what they do is horrific, BUT….I ask you….what would YOU do? Search your soul for me. If and when you read this or have read it already, would you not do the same? I sure as shit would. I don’t know what that says about me but if this is wrong…I soooooooooo don’t want to be right.
As dark, twisted and fucked up as this book was, it was a cathartic read for me and that’s NEVER happened in a book for me. Did I love every minute of this book? Hell no. I had to dig deep myself and step away a few times…..shit….I even cried while I was on the elliptical reading this book. There were scenes that literally hurt my chest but again, it was oddly cathartic and I truly enjoyed this ride. This book had all the vibes ranging from Bonnie and Clyde to Joker and Harley Quinn. I absolutely LOVED the Alice in Wonderland references and what they meant to Ellis/Dolly. Heathen/Rabbit took something safe and that she loved to try and get through to her, to try and keep her in a safe zone so that he wouldn’t lose her again. To me, he succeeded. To me, he was chivalrous and protective. To me, this wasn’t a monster keeping a “doll.” To me, this was a beautiful masterpiece.
If you heeded the warnings, read the comments positive and negative, are on the fence but intrigued…..just do it. If *I* can get through this shit, so can you. And, if you REALLY want….I’ll hold your hand and read it with you all over again just to experience it. The DARK AF romance revolution has begun and I bow down unto Tillie as the ring leader of this beautiful, fucked up parade.
Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock.