on September 12, 2017
Genres: Adult, Fiction
I fell in love with a boy a long time ago.
I was only a small girl. Scared and frightened, I was taken from my home and held against my will. His father hurt me, but he protected me and kept me safe as best he could.
Until I left him.
I ran the first chance I got and even though I knew he wasn’t behind me, I didn’t stop. The branches lashed out at me, punishing me for leaving him in the hands of a monster.
I’ve never felt such guilt in my life.
Although I survived, the boy was never found. I prayed for him to be safe. I dreamed he’d be alright and come back to me. Even as a young girl I knew I loved him, but I betrayed him.
Twenty years later, all my wishes came true.
But the boy came back a man. With a grip strong enough to keep me close and a look in his eyes that warned me to never dare leave him again. I was his to keep after all.
Twenty years after leaving one hell, I entered another. Our tale was only just getting started.
It’s dark and twisted.
But that doesn’t make it any less of what it is.
A love story. Our love story.
You know what? Apparently I’m not the type of reader that this book needs. I’m way too analytical. I need facts. I need reasons. I need to know the purpose of actions and dialogue. And I was gifted with none of that.
Starting off, you know absolutely nothing about this book. From the blurb, sure I expected a few damaged characters who maybe got their second chance romance love story going in a perhaps darker-ish way. Because that makes sense? Whatever. What I actually got was a story with minimal plot, and… That’s about it. I seriously cannot think of the point of this book. I feel like there was barely a story told, and I’m left with too many holes and questions for me to even consider this complete.
But too, even if this was somehow a darker read, I enjoy the occasional dark book! I’ll read a few a year to completely take me out of my element. I like the twisted mind fucks and the questionable decisions and weird situations. I was looking for that addictive and depraved quality that I usually get when reading this type of story, but was mostly left scratching my head and looking at my watch (I don’t wear a watch) waiting an actual story to begin.
Let’s please also separate the “darker themes” from crazy. Crazy does not equal dark, nor does dark equal crazy. Sure, you can argue that these characters have a dark past but so little of it is exposed, I think that’s a cop out. This book is focusing on them “trying to fix each other” based on what their past broke inside their minds. But again, crazy and dark do not mean the same thing. These folks just had some simple, itty bitty, average (have you caught on to the sarcasm?) psychological issues. Somewhere along the lines, everyone’s wires got crossed one too many times.
And a love story? Really? Where? Because I didn’t just read one. Someone might need to point that out for me because there was no falling in love. There were obsessive tendencies and “I’ve always loved him”, quotes thrown around repeatedly. Really though? Even though you haven’t seen him in 20 years? <– Not a spoiler, don’t yell at me. “But Shannon, there’s an epilogue and an HEA!” Don’t even get me started on the epilogue. I refuse.
This feels like there are seriously so many different cliches and “subplots” – I don’t even want to call it that, that are somehow mashed all into one book. Nothing flows, there’s no rhyme or reason, holes in the story, random side details that relate to nothing, no rising action, climax or falling action. So really, what did I even just read? If you want to try and tackle a complex subject matter like this, freaking give it everything you have and make it count!
Oh! Another thing! After I finished this, I noticed a prequel to the story at the back of the book. You know what I thought about that? Fuck it. That’s what. It was never mentioned, nor should it be there in the first place. If you want to include a prequel, put it at the beginning. I’m not reading it because at this point, anything in there is irrelevant to this story as it is currently portrayed. Is it going to give insight? Answer questions? I don’t care, if it’s relevant to the story, it’s needs to, dare I say it, be in the actual story.
*An ARC was received in exchange for an honest review.