Published by Piatkus on June 5th 2014
Have you ever been so angry that hitting things felt good? Ever felt numb to all emotions?
The past few years have been like that for me. Traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between. Some people hate me for it, while others are scared of me. But none of them can hurt me, because I don't care about anything or anyone.
I love her so much that I hate her. I hate that I can't let her go. We used to be friends, but I found out that I couldn't trust her or anyone else. So I hurt her. I pushed her away. But I still need her. She centers me. Engaging, challenging, bullying her - it's the last part of me that feels anything human.
But then she left for a year and came back a different girl. Now, when I push, she pushes back.
For everyone who loved Bully . . . This is Jared's story.
I had made a prediction after finishing Bully. I predicted that I would love Until You more than Bully, and I was right.
First, let me say that I don’t usually look forward to the next book being a flip in perspective. I always end up feeling like I just re-read the same book that I just finished. I couldn’t have been more pleased when I opened Until You to read an author’s note to her readers from Douglas. She reassured us that this IS NOT a retelling of Bully, and it wasn’t. It was so much more.
The first quarter of this book is completely new information, which made me feel like a kid seeing Disney World for the first time. I knew that I was going to love Jared more by seeing the story through his eyes. His relationship with Tate’s father surprised me the most. I wasn’t expecting that and was relieved to see that Jared had become more grounded the year Tate was away. The lessons that he instilled in him were so fatherly, something Jared was starving for.
“Jared, you’re going to have to start taking responsibility for yourself. You did wrong and the world doesn’t owe you anything. I’m not going to wipe your nose just because you come from a broken home and you think that you have a license to behave badly. I call it the ‘Fuck up, own up, and get up’ policy. Make a mistake, admit it, and move on. We all screw up, but a man solves his problems. He doesn’t make them worse.”
I was also ecstatic to get more info on Madoc and Jax. Douglas sure knows how to set up for her sequels. I am DYING to see her mold Madoc into my next book boyfriend as well as seeing how KC and Jax open up to each other.
I knew that I was going to sympathize for Jared, but I didn’t quite know what for yet. His confessions crushed me, His regret made me crestfallen and his evolution inspired me.
“Becoming hard at heart isn’t an intersection in your brain where you have a choice to turn left or right. It’s coming to a dead end and you just keep going, over the cliff, unable to stop the inevitable, because the truth is you just don’t want to.”
The end of this book was completely poetic and blew me away. Douglas is perfection, I never saw it coming. It was like a perfectly wrapped package with the bow perfectly folded. Simple and beautiful.
I posted 17 updates during this book. SEVENTEEN! I had all this energy and excitement pent up during the reading of this book that I had to let it out. Thank God for Goodreads because like hell my husband would tolerate me 🙂